Today he got on the train without me.

I tried my best but I took the wrong street and still got lost along the way. When I reached the train station slightly later then expected, I ran around trying to search for him, I knew he would be mad and I didn't want to fight. All I had infront of me was the sea of unfamiliar faces looking back at me, where are you? I picked up my cell phone and called him. He told me he left and that I could catch the next train to him or make my own plans, then he hung up. I fall to the ground and cry. I never felt so lost, so abandoned before. The person next to me asked me if I was okay and I said no, I'm not okay.

I miss being under the showers with you, the heat fogging up the mirrors, I feel warm both inside out. You take me in your arms and you tell me to wait it out, that it'll all end soon, you said you really love me and need me in your life. I forgive you and I love you too but the last time you told me this was in Decemeber and it's May now.