December 5th 2009 (Mental note to self : Do not kill yourself. You have a flight 2 days from now)
I spent most of today crying. Reading and re-reading emails, watching and re-watching videos from "the ex" also known was "Goldilocks". Those who read my previous blog have seen the transition from "that underaged party girl" to "boring girlfriend" to "that party girl". I'm right back where I started. Matthew calls this the "Cycle of Suck". I really don't like this.
